Spiral

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Artist: Robyn Hancock

Spiral

Revisiting

Revision

Repetition

Twisting

Turning

Navigating

Learning

Spiral

Which direction

Do you choose?

Win or lose?

Inward or outward?

You decide,

Which way to

Live your life.

Spiral

Forward

Onward

Growth

Change

Evolution

Creation

Resolution

Spiral

© Copyright 2016, Robyn Hancock. All Rights Reserved

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
I decided, given the new year that I would create new poems for this publication, thus giving me a creative challenge.

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Casuality

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Photographer: Dario Torres

There is a moment immediately after an action

When silence is deaf to itself:

There is only the smell of discharged weapons,

And smoke. Fractured air reverberating

From concussion; the hammering of fire.

 

Hands slowly disconnect their grasp

From stock and pistol grip.

Sometimes at the second of release

The shaking starts, butterfly wings

In the wind.

 

But within a minute, perhaps less, quiet rushes

Like a wave to engulf ears, cheeks, lips, the dirt

That is dressed with cartridge cases, belt-link and

– pray God not me – scarlet flowers that resolve

Into dressing pads.

 

Until like the release of a dam, from trickle to flood,

Come the screaming assault, a drenching in oily whimpering

Signaling men trapped in agony with no merciful release.

 

And so it goes even after the years have drawn tight

And the memories have been ingested.

 

One day a man meets a woman. They duel consensually

Drawing blood lightly with humour and intrigue.

But both are wary, carrying lessons from earlier actions

 

With dressing held ready to staunch the flow.

Copyright © 1994 – Jerry Beale

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
I wanted to describe how difficult it had been for me to allow anyone close to me after my experiences as a soldier. I felt dirty and damaged, and certain that anybody who looked into my soul would somehow be harmed.

Apopo

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Artist: Robyn Hancock

Tomorrow

Future dawn.

Spirit reborn.

Apopo

Creating opportunities for change.

A chance to start again.

Tomorrow

Hope renewed.

Situations reviewed.

Apopo

Time to start a-fresh.

Adopting a different mindset.

Tomorrow

Eternal sunrise.

Celebrating life…

© Copyright 2016, Robyn Hancock. All Rights Reserved

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
I decided, given the new year, that I would create new poems for this publication, thus giving me a creative challenge.

Working through Cobwebs

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Melbourne Street Art – Artist Unknown
Photographer: Jennifer Cox
Photo used with permission

“I’m trying to work through cobwebs”, he said,

with eyes pouring like rain
into a leaky boat
squaring off the shoreline,
heading out to sea
avoiding Redbacks
like the plague. negotiating
rogue waves
behind his back,
facing his fear; ex –
tended arms pull
away – escape
for the moment.

he scans the horizon
left to right that sinking
feeling farther, closer
than he expected de –
Nile; a river in Egypt
too far away to row
a thunder clap into eternity,
Isis turning a blind eye;
Trite – on dragging him
under, spinning
a vortex only Terra –
firma can translate.

taking the bull
by the horns, he finds
solid ground wrestling
Taurus, knee deep
in mud that sticks
like shit on the inside;
cobwebs cling to hard –
wired neurons
lodged in the gaps
in – between grey,
a matter for
black and white.

separate, facts find
fiction fornicating
in a web of deceit
by design, too lurid
for children like
Persephone – abducted
innocence; a metaphor
for rape, choking the Hell
out of life. all the while,
pseudo affection bribes
a hand – full of lollies,
to sweeten the blow.

“I want everything to be saved”,
he said.

© Copyright 2016, Jodine Derena Butler.  All Rights Reserved

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
It’s very sad watching loved ones hurting.

Long Lines of Lies

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Photographer: Unknown

I don’t know what to do

when they look into my eyes

expecting

the drawing they made of me

they rewrite me,

insert the cliche that hangs like a slave in the square

I feel their lies

tickle,

nuanced and lovely to the touch,

and me gracefully bludgeoned

eventually they find the door

and drag away their sharpened tongues

and behind

a mind reawakened –

coloured by Matisse

with words sprinkled in the lush greens of grass

Copyright © 2016 (Keith Nunes)

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
This poem makes sense of what I feel going on around me or at least what I perceive is going on.

Bird

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Artist: Hua Tunan
Image used with permission

Morning time. So I leave my door, descending the four steps

Precariously

 

My feet are bare upon the grass. Its wetness is almost sexual

If not for the cold.

 

A spider’s web catches the silver promise of light within a single drop

Of moiisture. Such a perfect fragile jewel;

 

It’s the sound I catch first. An impatient fluttering, daubed with

High-pitched peeps of distress.

 

Step over the log, my feet finding primordial satisfaction in its

Careless roughness.

 

The chicken wire lies in a tired bundle, threaded through with grass

And a single impatient thistle.

 

There. In the middle of the roll. A tiny brown speckled form. A thrush

Trapped within the deaf wire.

 

Exhausted.

 

My feet stop. With each step closer, the bird becomes more animated

Beating its tiny form against the wire.

 

How can I say ‘I mean to help you, to tear back the walls that encircle you,

To give you back your universe?  For we are so deeply

 

Alien to each other.

 

I am torn. I cannot leave this other life. Yet I cannot help. Energy drains

From me. I am now unnecessary.

 

A watcher only.

 

The bird is still. Its chest heaves once. A wing slips and hangs loose,

Askew.

 

It’s quiet.

 

I begin to hate the wire.

Copyright © 2002 – Jerry Beale

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
This poem describes an actual event which had a profound effect on me. It emphasised how separate we have become from the simplicity of nature.

Forgotten Skin

 
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Artist: Nod Ghosh
Image used with permission

He carries acres of skin,

a decadent petticoat, wrapped

around his identity.

 

He finds a portion

untouched since

the beginning of memories.

 

A foreign pellicle,

symbiotic lesion,

that forges a crossing through

Lethean shorelines.

 

He travels to unknown

territory, unravels keratin spirals

bounded by

an integumental sea.

 

He feels its smoothness,

unremarkable

in doughy caress.

 

He enters the fourth room

of a three roomed house,

licks himself clean,

like an atheist in heaven.

 

Copyright © 2015 (Nod Ghosh)

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
When the meat and veg of life are difficult to chew, Nod Ghosh finds sanctuary in a gravy of words. Forgotten Skin examines the urge to self-mutilate, while Sailfins relates to when a person chooses death over life.

Sailfins

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Artist: Nod Ghosh
Image used with permission
 

She wades

through salt soaked shallows,

searches for pipi,

hopes for kina, with

a bucket on her arm.    

                                                                                                                                                She cries an echo

from sand bars clean,

untroubled

by the task of harvesting

abundant molluscs.

 

Elusive echinoderms

charm live victims

to shallow depths,

against the cry of bitterns.

 

She treads with finite steps,

where sailfins fly

and mermaids die.

 

She wades between

riptides of fate,

hopes Tangaroa

will find her body.

 

Copyright © 2015, Nod Ghosh

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
When the meat and veg of life are difficult to chew, Nod Ghosh finds sanctuary in a gravy of words. Forgotten Skin examines the urge to self-mutilate, while Sailfins relates to when a person chooses death over life.

Songs from Pollen Island

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‘King Tide’ by Dean Buchanan

The Tranz New Zealand panzers lay waste to the mangroves 

In an already throttled harbour

In the mangled remains

A heron two pukeko wander through their decimated village

Two crew from the tiger 

Clang and probe at their muddied tracks for jammed rocks 

With long metal bars

The roar of the machines

The violet haze 

The scent of diesel 

The shout of orders

Goodbye Pollen Island.

© Copyright 2015, Dean Buchanan.

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
Dean gave up alcohol. He painted. He cycled, he walked the bush trails of the Waitakeres, he climbed mountains. He painted. The same punishing regime of work and exercise is maintained today, up well before dawn, painting in his studio down the bush path from his house, cycling, climbing, and always more painting. Dean has found his unique voice, his unique vision of the world around him and now as ever he seeks only to paint it.    
    

I’m Glad You Are Still Here

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Thoughts of suicidal ideation can creep in to our minds at any time, unexpectedly or repeatedly.  For those of us who have listened and let those thoughts amplify, know that “this too shall pass”, and seek help personally and professionally before it’s too late.

My rule of thumb is to seek help before these thoughts start to lead you astray. It’s never a wise decision to make any decision in business, love or life when we are feeling emotional, distressed, angry or hopeless.

Here is my list of things to think about, to distract you long enough to figure out how you can move forward and heal whatever is hurting you and seek help. Don’t let suicidal ideation become another suicide statistic.

●Talk to a friend,
●ring an anonymous help line,
●talk to your preferred doctor
●join a community group,
●go to church,
●write a poem,
●write a story,
●write a blog,
●write affirmations to yourself
●see a therapist,
●draw a picture,
●paint,
●go for a walk,
●make a garden,
●join a community garden,
●cry,
●sob,
●move your furniture around,
●bake a cake,
●play the drums or guitar,
●write a song,
●listen to music
●ring a friend you haven’t spoken to for ages
●visit a friend or relative

The list is endless really. Feel free to add what helps you move through difficult times in the comments below and I will add them here.

The important thing to remember is that you are not alone, even when your thoughts are trying to convince you otherwise. You are loved, liked, wanted and needed.

I’m glad you are still here. I’m sad for those we know and love who are not here with us today. I’m sad for their friends, families and professionals who will remember them always, still loving them.

I prefer to ‘write to heal’ as do many of my friends who struggle with mental health at times. You don’t have to be a ‘writer’ or an ‘artist’, the important thing is to express what it is you are feeling and heal, bit by bit, piece by piece and live.

Love,

Jodine Derena Butler
Editor
Head Lines NZ

© Copyright 2015, Jodine Derena Butler.  All Rights Reserved