Soul Deep Isolation

Soul-deep isolation
alone among the crowds
so distant, disconnected
I thought about those words
Pen wrote “soul-deep isolation”
and I understood the meaning
those words made total sense
reminded me I am not alone
the ‘aspie’ community knows
understands when other do not
quirky, different, odd somehow
chaotic dark jumble thoughts
intensified cascade of chaos
complex analytic processing
engines full power, high speed
crash you can no longer think
just blank piercing empty pain
used up and then throw away
will I ever connect, be a real part
my destiny a parallel existence
I look upon all the smiling faces
like an alien, alienated, alone
another world that’s not mine
where I will never quite fit!

Copyright  ©2010 Alyson Bradley

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
Alyson Bradley, grew up in London, where she worked in IT.  She moved to New Zealand about 6 years ago.  Alyson has been diagnosed with an interesting mix of  Aspergers, Bipolar, ADHD, Dyslexia and Dyspraxia.  She loves being creative and uses her knowledge and experience to self advocate on her private website.  Writing has helped her on her journey.

Silent Pain

Silent Pain

Fake smile

….Fixed masks

…..Feeling hurt

……Forgotten place

…….Forever alone

……..Flowers wilted

………Feeble self

……….Frozen time

………..Face darkness

…………Falling down

………….Fists tight

…………..Fingers clinched

……………Found solitude

…………….Fading cracks

……………..Future hope

………………Forgive me

……………….For tomorrows

………………..Further sadness

Copyright  ©2010 Alyson Bradley

Contributors Note:
Alyson Bradley, grew up in London, where she worked in IT.  She moved to New Zealand about 6 years ago.  Alyson has been diagnosed with an interesting mix of  Aspergers, Bipolar, ADHD, Dyslexia and Dyspraxia.  She loves being creative and uses her knowledge and experience to self advocate on her private website.  Writing has helped her on her journey.