Photographer: Ange Harper
Photo used with permission
Here we go again
for those of you sick
of this shit – Karma
Happiness, eludes me
over-analyzing everything
searching for that choice to make
Looking to purpose choose life
simplicity a complex solution
blind, numb, lost & forgotten
My brain hard-wired my eyes shut
Persistent Depressive Disorder
convincingly sees only what was
Nothing gets any better
I’ve never known anything different
happiness is Far Far Away, folklore
Farther apart I age, no wiser
life flashes before my eyes, wasted
it’s a miracle I have survived thus far
I may as well be dead
it’s like I’m dead
I feel dead
Burdons not just my own; contagion
leaching into every soul I touch,
Incubus fornicate in my sleeplessness
Pervasive nightmares & thoughts
leave little light – my aura
hedonism postulating pleasure
Shit shows on at 4am
Doom & disaster, spiritituality
leper colonies shun; shamed
beyond toxicity
I am cursed
so is everyone in it
locked up for my own safety
Unlike Lilith
© Copyright 2015, Jodine Derena Butler. All Rights Reserved
CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
I wrote this recently because I feel like crap. Another bout of reactive depression has made its presence felt. I am doing everything I can to work it through. It’s hard but achievable, as I have proven to myself over and over. The last time, ten years ago. So, I am writing to heal again. This too shall pass. Jx
Ange Harper has kindly given permission for her beautiful photograph to be published here. Jx
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Jodine, I’d like to make you a featured artist in my Write To Heal movement. Let me know what you think. There is info about it on my website.
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Oooooh, I would love the honor Drem! Thank you. Send me the link. I’m excited! Are you going to do an interview? Jx
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That would be included!
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I can’t find the info Drem. ..sorry
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it’s on the top on the right of http://www.ArtOfDrem.com
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Reblogged this on Drem and commented:
Work by my dear friend Jodine.
It is very different than mine, but one can still appreciate the difference in style.
She too writes to heal.
xoxo
Drem
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Beautiful as always Jodine.
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Thank you Drem. A real compliment coming from you. Your poetry is awesome! Jx
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