Lilith & the Incubus

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Photographer: Ange Harper
Photo used with permission

Here we go again
for those of you sick
of this shit – Karma

Happiness, eludes me
over-analyzing everything
searching for that choice to make

Looking to purpose choose life
simplicity a complex solution
blind, numb, lost & forgotten

My brain hard-wired my eyes shut
Persistent Depressive Disorder
convincingly sees only what was

Nothing gets any better
I’ve never known anything different
happiness is Far Far Away, folklore

Farther apart I age, no wiser
life flashes before my eyes, wasted
it’s a miracle I have survived thus far

I may as well be dead
it’s like I’m dead
I feel dead

Burdons not just my own; contagion
leaching into every soul I touch,
Incubus fornicate in my sleeplessness

Pervasive nightmares & thoughts
leave little light – my aura
hedonism postulating pleasure

Shit shows on at 4am

Doom & disaster, spiritituality
leper colonies shun; shamed
beyond toxicity

I am cursed
so is everyone in it
locked up for my own safety

Unlike Lilith

© Copyright 2015, Jodine Derena Butler.  All Rights Reserved

CONTRIBUTORS NOTE:
I wrote this recently because I feel like crap. Another bout of reactive depression has made its presence felt. I am doing everything I can to work it through. It’s hard but achievable, as I have proven to myself over and over. The last time, ten years ago. So, I am writing to heal again. This too shall pass. Jx

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9 thoughts on “Lilith & the Incubus

  1. Jodine December 14, 2015 / 10:41 am

    Ange Harper has kindly given permission for her beautiful photograph to be published here. Jx

    Like

  2. Drem December 11, 2015 / 3:28 pm

    Jodine, I’d like to make you a featured artist in my Write To Heal movement. Let me know what you think. There is info about it on my website.

    Liked by 1 person

  3. Drem December 11, 2015 / 3:03 pm

    Reblogged this on Drem and commented:
    Work by my dear friend Jodine.
    It is very different than mine, but one can still appreciate the difference in style.
    She too writes to heal.

    xoxo
    Drem

    Liked by 1 person

    • Jodine December 11, 2015 / 3:27 pm

      Thank you Drem. A real compliment coming from you. Your poetry is awesome! Jx

      Liked by 1 person

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